fade to white

pain..the vast ocean that i sail. lost at sea. sorrow. regret. all i have known all along. pain...my closest friend...death...my destination. is it that i just care too much? cuz its tearin me to pieces. abandonment the story of my life. hate is growing. misery. the seed that i reep...from the seed of love i sow. who knew caring was a bad thing? who knew it would be what killed me? love is all i want but hate and abandonment is what i get. so i cut my arms up watch them bleed. let the pain drain out of me. chain my heart up melt the key. so sorry im not what u wanted me to be. so pop another pill. take another shot. have another drink. wrap the notes. my sailing's done. my destination reached. a new river trails the journey made from the blood i left behind. so pop another pill. take another drink. drown in the bottle. stumble out and face the truth. cant fight it anymore. and i fade to white. anger. agony. misory. regret. step down. back off. your the next victim of the brutality.