I will be happy

I want to be happy.

Fuck this shit. I'm going to be happy.

I don't care about him. Let him do what he likes. I don't need him, I don't need the friends who aren't really friends and leave me for him and I don't need to listen to him.

I'm going back to school soon. And I'm going to get the best grades I can. I'm going to do writing. I'm going to apply for uni. I'm going to read good books. I'm going to go out with my friends. I'm going to get my ears pierced. I'm going to do something fun for my birthday. I'm going to do the exercise I want to do. I'm going to try and not care about what I eat. I'm going to earn money. I'm going to wear nice clothes.

Maybe I'll find a girlfriend. Maybe I'll win some writing competitions. I can do anything.

I'm going to be an awesome staffie. I'm going to be an awesome friend. I'm going to do my volunteer work. I'm going to help people. I'm going to be the best I can be.

I'm going to be happy. I'm going to keep trying until I am happy.