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Posted December 8th 2011 at 08:54 AM by Evanesco
There's a voice in my head telling me to lose weight. Just x more pounds. Just until you reach this weight. Just until you're underweight. Just until your BMI is this. Just until you die.
I wanted to get better but I can't do it on my own. I keep thinking I don't have a problem, like I'm in denial, but then I realise, like today, that this isn't normal and I'm out of control. But then the fact that I know I have a problem means that I can't have a problem because people with eating disorders don't believe they have a problem so I can't have one so I'm back in denial. Or maybe there just isn't a problem.
I don't know what to do. I'm losing weight again, I'm restricting again, I'm exercising obsessively again. I don't know what to do.
I wanted to get better but I can't do it on my own. I keep thinking I don't have a problem, like I'm in denial, but then I realise, like today, that this isn't normal and I'm out of control. But then the fact that I know I have a problem means that I can't have a problem because people with eating disorders don't believe they have a problem so I can't have one so I'm back in denial. Or maybe there just isn't a problem.
I don't know what to do. I'm losing weight again, I'm restricting again, I'm exercising obsessively again. I don't know what to do.
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Sweetheart you realised that you do have a problem and that's one of the first steps to beating this eating disorder. You really need to tell someone that can help you. Maybe book an appointment with your doctor?
You're storng sweetheart, even if you can't see that yet. You can beat this and I'm always here if you need anything.
Look after yourself beautiful (: <3Posted December 8th 2011 at 01:26 PM by Anatidaephobia
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Hester, you're so beautiful. Can I be the voice in your head telling you that you are perfect just the way you are? Because you are.
I really plead you to go see a doctor about this issue, they can help you meet healthy goals, and also get you to the right professionals, such as psychological professionals, if it is only your mind. And it must be because you are so lovely. Stay strong, you can beat this, just keep fighting. You DESERVE to love yourself.Posted December 8th 2011 at 03:23 PM by Coffee.
