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Posted May 16th 2011 at 09:07 PM by Evanesco
I'm staying away from advice here right now. I'll still blog, I guess.
It's just so triggering. It makes me want to cut and starve and kill myself.
But I like to help people, so I come on anyway.
I've been happier lately, but it's weird. Thinspo is keeping me happy. Eating barely anything is keeping me happy. I'm desperately trying to lose weight so I'm happier.
But what if I fail? What if I gain?
First session with Pete tomorrow. I'm so scared. What the hell do I say to him?
It's just so triggering. It makes me want to cut and starve and kill myself.
But I like to help people, so I come on anyway.
I've been happier lately, but it's weird. Thinspo is keeping me happy. Eating barely anything is keeping me happy. I'm desperately trying to lose weight so I'm happier.
But what if I fail? What if I gain?
First session with Pete tomorrow. I'm so scared. What the hell do I say to him?
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I had to take a few weeks break from Teenhelp as well, just to be away from people with the same issues. I know how you feel-it really can be triggering. I would consider taking a departure for a while.
Sadly, it's only temporary happiness. Your happiness is depending on a number on a scale, and the way that fluctuates, it can never make you permanently happy. :\ You have to be okay with yourself.
Hang in there. PM if you ever need.Posted May 17th 2011 at 12:09 AM by Coffee.
