Still empty, still numb, still alone
Posted May 2nd 2011 at 02:54 PM by Evanesco
I've finished the chapter for Hannah. I don't think I can do anything else today. Seriously, feel completely worn out.
I've done my best at helping people on the forum today. I've replied to a load of posts.
I want someone to help me. But not just in words. Not just talking. I need someone to physically be here.
But they're not.
I'm getting a headache.
I think I'll go sit on the bed. At least then I can pretend that I'm revising. Maybe I'll be able to read a bit. I managed a chapter and a half last night, but the book is more of a chore than a pleasure.
I want to cut again. I need to distract myself. But I just want to feel something.
When I'm with my boyfriend I feel love. But when I'm not, I don't feel anything.
I don't want to go to school tomorrow. I don't think I can cope.
I've done my best at helping people on the forum today. I've replied to a load of posts.
I want someone to help me. But not just in words. Not just talking. I need someone to physically be here.
But they're not.
I'm getting a headache.
I think I'll go sit on the bed. At least then I can pretend that I'm revising. Maybe I'll be able to read a bit. I managed a chapter and a half last night, but the book is more of a chore than a pleasure.
I want to cut again. I need to distract myself. But I just want to feel something.
When I'm with my boyfriend I feel love. But when I'm not, I don't feel anything.
I don't want to go to school tomorrow. I don't think I can cope.
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Posted May 2nd 2011 at 05:00 PM by Obliviate