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Two years to turn my life around--Not possible
Posted May 2nd 2011 at 09:23 AM by Evanesco
I'm going to get some writing done today. I don't care how much effort it takes. I'm going to type that chapter up for Hannah because I promised her it two weeks ago. And then I'll see if I can't get some more stuff typed and posted.
I've just got to keep doing things. If I keep doing things then I won't feel so alone. But it's so hard to keep doing things. I don't feel sad, I just feel nothing. I'm empty.
I guess I'm lucky that my family is quite strict in certain ways. Like meal times. We eat meals together. My mum checks up on my revision.
I'm scared. I need to sort myself out in two years, before I go off to uni. Two years sounds like a long time but I've been struggling for four. And then when I'm at uni there'll be no one to look after me. No one to make sure I eat, no one to get me out of bed in the morning, no one to make sure I shower, no one to stop me from cutting.
I've just got to keep doing things. If I keep doing things then I won't feel so alone. But it's so hard to keep doing things. I don't feel sad, I just feel nothing. I'm empty.
I guess I'm lucky that my family is quite strict in certain ways. Like meal times. We eat meals together. My mum checks up on my revision.
I'm scared. I need to sort myself out in two years, before I go off to uni. Two years sounds like a long time but I've been struggling for four. And then when I'm at uni there'll be no one to look after me. No one to make sure I eat, no one to get me out of bed in the morning, no one to make sure I shower, no one to stop me from cutting.
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You can do this, I know you can. You're strong and you've got all of us here at TH to help you through everything. Hang on in there. <3Posted May 2nd 2011 at 10:53 AM by Everglow.
