The good, the bad and the ugly

Given up on my goals. Like I said, I suck with them. I've kind of tidied my room, but there's still a lot left to do. And I did one mind map, but I didn't do the history or my story.

There's so much stuff to do and I just can't find the energy to do it.

My mother is convinced that I am purposefully being unhealthy so that I don't learn anything during revision so that I fail my exams so that I can say to her that I tried hard but I must just be stupid.

Sometimes I think that she must be the crazy one, not me.

If I didn't have some short term things to look forward to then I'd end it now, like I said I would, but my mum and my sisters are going away tomorrow. It'll be nice having the house just to myself and my dad. And my boyfriend is looking after me. He's promised to make sure I eat properly over the next few days. I am so lucky to have him. I'd be dead without him.

I'm also looking forward to the Easter service tomorrow. I'm going to go to the evening one so that I don't get distracted by my family.

I'm going swimming on Monday and I've got a run scheduled in for another day. I just have to keep myself busy.

After that. Well, I don't know. I'm trying to take things one step at a time.