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Oh drama. (Triggering)
Posted December 13th 2012 at 02:34 AM by ¯|_(ツ)_|¯
Tags anger, cutting, dating, friendship, loss, pressure, relationships, self harm, stress
So, everyone thinks that me and my friend, M, should date. Neither of us agree and feel our shop is too sibling-like for us to ever work out. However, with all the pressure coming from outside sources, I think he is mad at me. He wasn't really talking to me today after outclass and my friend said she thinks he's mad at me. 
I can't lose him as a friend. I just can't. I started crying for a while earlier at the thought. I don't want him mad at me or upset with me or thinking different of me or any of that. I think I'll be devastated if I can no longer talk to him or go to the mall with him or anything.
But seriously, why does everyone think we should be in a relationship? Even my mom and sister jumped on that bandwagon but no. I got so upset with it last night I cut my arm and my hip. Today the thought of him being angry with me drove me to cut up my stomach, as well as feeling stupid about being absentminded on something and having to fess up to a teacher about it. Now my stomach kinda stings but that's okay, I'd rather have it sting than be thinking of all this. And be tired. I'll sleep well tonight.
I'm so tired of this already. If he ignores me tomorrow I'm scared I'll break down in tears in class. Awesome.
I can't lose him as a friend. I just can't. I started crying for a while earlier at the thought. I don't want him mad at me or upset with me or thinking different of me or any of that. I think I'll be devastated if I can no longer talk to him or go to the mall with him or anything.
But seriously, why does everyone think we should be in a relationship? Even my mom and sister jumped on that bandwagon but no. I got so upset with it last night I cut my arm and my hip. Today the thought of him being angry with me drove me to cut up my stomach, as well as feeling stupid about being absentminded on something and having to fess up to a teacher about it. Now my stomach kinda stings but that's okay, I'd rather have it sting than be thinking of all this. And be tired. I'll sleep well tonight.
I'm so tired of this already. If he ignores me tomorrow I'm scared I'll break down in tears in class. Awesome.
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Hey, I know its hard and awkward to go through this. Trust me been there done that. Try talking to him when you get a chance..just normally. If he's a true friend then you 2 can get past this, even if it may take some time. Please don't beat yourself up over it, I know its hard but SH'ing over it isn't really going to help. You know I'm always here to talk too..I'm always here to help keep your mind off SH'ing in anyway. Keep your chin up and again, I'm always here to talk. <3Posted December 13th 2012 at 04:30 AM by Thereishope
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Hey there,
Try not to jump to any conclusions, there could be a number of reasons why is not talking to you as much right now. I think you should give things a day or two to cool off any then if things do not get better try talking to him. He might not be mad at you, instead, he might be dealing with something and he might be feeling the need to avoid people.
I know that when I am struggling I tend to close off from people. So, try not to over think all of this and work on getting down to the bottom of all this.
If it turns out that he is upset due to everything that people are saying in regards to you two getting together try talking to him and see if there is a way the two of you can work on fixing it all.
Also, if it is upsetting you that people are saying these things try talking to them about it and explaining that you don't feel comfortable discussing that at the moment. Try and let them know that they need to respect your boundaries.
And, as for you question as to why people are saying this, they might think that you two look cute together, mesh well and are, therefore, jumping to the conclusion that you two should date. Try not to let it bother you too much, okay? It sucks and is annoying but I think with time most people will stop saying it. Some things really do just take time. :P
I hope this helped and if you need anything please PM/VM me.Posted December 13th 2012 at 06:44 AM by
