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Walnut trees... (triggering SH)
Posted November 25th 2012 at 02:48 PM by Duet With Myself
Ugh I almost fell back again
for no particular reason.
But i couldn't find any razors or knives, an i was literally writhing around on the floor, crying. I burnt my mouth with soup and tried to do the salt and ice thingo . It only made me feel worse. The result of this hold back of the urge was me hydro-pump vomiting on our walnut trees. gross.
it has been almost a month since i last self harmed, and, to be honest, i don't feel good. i mean, It's good being free of the guilt, but i feel like im caging all my emotions inside of me.
I think i failed today.
ugh
WHY?
for no particular reason.
But i couldn't find any razors or knives, an i was literally writhing around on the floor, crying. I burnt my mouth with soup and tried to do the salt and ice thingo . It only made me feel worse. The result of this hold back of the urge was me hydro-pump vomiting on our walnut trees. gross.
it has been almost a month since i last self harmed, and, to be honest, i don't feel good. i mean, It's good being free of the guilt, but i feel like im caging all my emotions inside of me.
I think i failed today.
ugh
WHY?
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Recovery is a lengthy process, dear. A month isn't going to be enough time to fix it all. You didn't fail today, you had a slip up. Slip ups in recovery happen. But it's important to learn from the slip up and move forward stronger than you previously were. Self harm was a way of releasing your emotions, but now it's time to find a healthy way. You can do this <3Posted November 25th 2012 at 03:02 PM by Just Peachy.
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I know it isn't going to fix it all, but I wasn't even a 'heavy' Self Harmer... ugh I'll figure it our, thanks for the help
Posted November 26th 2012 at 09:03 AM by Duet With Myself
