Friends, Reserves :|

So Hailie's been really pissed off at me lately, The first time she spoken to me in 2 days was this morning to ask me if I could watch her baby sister Dani for an hour. Me trying to be a good friend said yes, Its now 12 hours later, She hasn't come back yet. I'm nervous to just put her to bed and leave her, cause I'm scared she roll of the bed or something. Dani has no bed, no carrying thing, nothing. Just some food and diapers. And the crying, She hasn't stopped in hours Me and Blake have to stay up with her:\
But in better news in a couple of hours it'll be 3 days since I've purged, cut, or smoked. The urges are horrible though.
AND I told one of my really good friends that I joined the reserves and plan on joining the army. She got so upset. Like she was freaking out, She said she can't handle not seeing me. A lot of my friends have been asking me "What if you die". But honestly, If I die, I die. I'm not worried about it, I don't know why anyone else is. I feel really bad about "leaving" but this is something I really want to do, and its not for a couple of years. :\