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Posted July 13th 2011 at 04:06 AM by dredear
My therapist told me I should have cut off connections with her because she's part of my "dark" past. (His words, not mine) It's times like these I really wish I would have listened. But I have to get past it, Jamie is watching my every move:\
I will admit I started smoking heavily now. I try not to around Jamie. It seems like my entire life revolves around someone else.
-When I was little all I did was try to please my dad.
-As I got older all I did was think about her.
-Now whenever I go to have a smoke or sh, All I think about is Jamie. What happens if he becomes like me?
But unlike me Jamie has a promising future. He didn't have to go through what I did. I didn't want to share this but I guess I will. The only reason Jamie is in foster care is because his parents were killed in a car accident, and He has no other family. I worry about him too much. :\
Oh, and Right now it seems like my only friend is Blake. He is spending the night at my house right now. My foster parents want me to be more social, So they let him come over. And he's really good with Jamie. He doesn't sh or anything, He only smokes. Not as much as me though. : )
I am trying to stay postive, It's harder than it looks :\
I will admit I started smoking heavily now. I try not to around Jamie. It seems like my entire life revolves around someone else.
-When I was little all I did was try to please my dad.
-As I got older all I did was think about her.
-Now whenever I go to have a smoke or sh, All I think about is Jamie. What happens if he becomes like me?
But unlike me Jamie has a promising future. He didn't have to go through what I did. I didn't want to share this but I guess I will. The only reason Jamie is in foster care is because his parents were killed in a car accident, and He has no other family. I worry about him too much. :\
Oh, and Right now it seems like my only friend is Blake. He is spending the night at my house right now. My foster parents want me to be more social, So they let him come over. And he's really good with Jamie. He doesn't sh or anything, He only smokes. Not as much as me though. : )
I am trying to stay postive, It's harder than it looks :\
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I completely understand. Staying positive is one of my biggest challenges-I try so hard to encourage other people hoping someday I can believe it. xD Trust me, you're not the only one.
I'm glad you're trying your hardest to seperate yourself from the people that got you to the place you are. And as your therapist and you have pointed out, you need to start doing things for yourself not only other people.
You deserve it.
PM me if you ever need!
-TraciPosted July 13th 2011 at 05:09 AM by Coffee.
