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I want to remind you that we all go through challenges and obstacles. We can't go back and change what happened. All we can do is our best at the end of the day and learn from experience so we don't end up repeating the same mistakes.
If you ever want to message me about anything, feel free to PM me and I will answer back as soon as possible.
Thanks so much for stopping by, have a great day wherever you are in whatever time zone you are in!
The Better Part of Me (Important Message)
Posted September 21st 2013 at 04:04 PM by CrusadingAvenger
Ever since high school began, I've always been searching for answers to this so-called "journey" that I've been embarking on. For the longest time, I've always wanted to figure out this one simple question: who am I truly? Am I the one that constantly has to move to different groups of people to fit in and not be an outcast, or am I the out-going, up-beat, independent one that's not afraid to stand alone and not afraid to meet new people, even if it ends up being that some of those people don't want me in their life? Throughout most of my life, I've always felt like a loner. No matter how hard I tried to assimilate myself into many peoples' lives (people that are around my age of course), I just feel like there would be no single person to truly care about me. Sure, many people would say hi to me whenever I showed my face around on campus, but hardly few have noticed that deep down inside, there's a gap left in where my heart should be. From time to time, I've felt like there wasn't a place that I belonged in. Nobody would care if I left the school and ventured off into a new one (which I almost did last year due to my experience with Anne).
It was a harsh, bitter feeling that I've held onto for the longest time, but after what happened last year, that part of me began to fade over time. I mainly have my mom and my close friends to thank for that, and others that have touched my life in a way that lifted me up to lengths I have never imagined before. If only they knew how much I appreciated them for being there for me through all the triumphant and rough times. They know that I do appreciate them, but they have no idea how much my life has improved simply because of the words of wisdom that I was taught from them, and the fact that they were always there when I needed them the most. If it wasn't for them, I would've ran away from it all and remain in the shadows, encased in darkness and never wanting to come out. All my faith and everything else would be broken. However, I knew it deep in my heart that wasn't what the real me would do. That's when I finally had discovered the true part of me.
I stand for something more to others (not all of them obviously) because of all the great personal qualities I hold true to myself as well as my many talents (not sure if that counts, but whatever
). I aspire to something greater, and it makes me feel that much better that I have inspired others to follow my example. For some reason, most people define me as one of the nicest (if not THE nicest), most caring, most awesome, and one of the most talented people that they know. When I finally realized how much of an inspiration I was, I felt the weight of my loneliness start to ease off. I had soared and emerged as one of the strongest people who has kept his faith and kept believing in that things will start to get better in the long run, and they have.
To ANYONE who has read up to this point, I want to share an important message to you:
No matter how hard life drags you down, and no matter how long you've felt like you've been on your own, don't let your fears and doubts get the best of you. I know that I have never been suicidal and prone to self-harm in my life, but if you think that death and cutting is the answer to end all your suffering, think again because it's not. Do you really think that you're making things any better by harming yourself? No. See, most people lose faith really easily due to the fact that they feel like they can't get out of their situation, and nothing will ever improve. I'm telling you right now: your life and the things that go on will only continue to be miserable and terrible only if you continue to choose to view it that way. The capacity to make change to that has ALWAYS been within your grasps. Every one of us is capable of turning our lives around; you just got to believe that you can. I know I don't know what it's like to be in the situations that most of you experience, and you're right: I don't know. In fact, I never will. That doesn't mean I can't understand why you can't hold onto faith when worse comes to worse. I know I haven't been on this website for that long, but from everything that I've seen so far, I understand why it can be difficult to keep on believing when all is lost.
People can be really mean, but that doesn't mean that there's no one out there that cares. You're wrong if you think there's no one out there that won't give a darn about you. You're wrong if you think there's no way your life will ever get better. You're wrong if you think suicide and self-harm is the only way out of your suffering. There are others in this world who care and feel for others as much as I do. You just got to keep carrying on and eventually come across those people. I believe that anyone can be strong, and you can be too.
You're not alone out there. Take it from someone who knows for a fact that's true from experience.
It was a harsh, bitter feeling that I've held onto for the longest time, but after what happened last year, that part of me began to fade over time. I mainly have my mom and my close friends to thank for that, and others that have touched my life in a way that lifted me up to lengths I have never imagined before. If only they knew how much I appreciated them for being there for me through all the triumphant and rough times. They know that I do appreciate them, but they have no idea how much my life has improved simply because of the words of wisdom that I was taught from them, and the fact that they were always there when I needed them the most. If it wasn't for them, I would've ran away from it all and remain in the shadows, encased in darkness and never wanting to come out. All my faith and everything else would be broken. However, I knew it deep in my heart that wasn't what the real me would do. That's when I finally had discovered the true part of me.
I stand for something more to others (not all of them obviously) because of all the great personal qualities I hold true to myself as well as my many talents (not sure if that counts, but whatever
). I aspire to something greater, and it makes me feel that much better that I have inspired others to follow my example. For some reason, most people define me as one of the nicest (if not THE nicest), most caring, most awesome, and one of the most talented people that they know. When I finally realized how much of an inspiration I was, I felt the weight of my loneliness start to ease off. I had soared and emerged as one of the strongest people who has kept his faith and kept believing in that things will start to get better in the long run, and they have. To ANYONE who has read up to this point, I want to share an important message to you:
No matter how hard life drags you down, and no matter how long you've felt like you've been on your own, don't let your fears and doubts get the best of you. I know that I have never been suicidal and prone to self-harm in my life, but if you think that death and cutting is the answer to end all your suffering, think again because it's not. Do you really think that you're making things any better by harming yourself? No. See, most people lose faith really easily due to the fact that they feel like they can't get out of their situation, and nothing will ever improve. I'm telling you right now: your life and the things that go on will only continue to be miserable and terrible only if you continue to choose to view it that way. The capacity to make change to that has ALWAYS been within your grasps. Every one of us is capable of turning our lives around; you just got to believe that you can. I know I don't know what it's like to be in the situations that most of you experience, and you're right: I don't know. In fact, I never will. That doesn't mean I can't understand why you can't hold onto faith when worse comes to worse. I know I haven't been on this website for that long, but from everything that I've seen so far, I understand why it can be difficult to keep on believing when all is lost.
People can be really mean, but that doesn't mean that there's no one out there that cares. You're wrong if you think there's no one out there that won't give a darn about you. You're wrong if you think there's no way your life will ever get better. You're wrong if you think suicide and self-harm is the only way out of your suffering. There are others in this world who care and feel for others as much as I do. You just got to keep carrying on and eventually come across those people. I believe that anyone can be strong, and you can be too.
You're not alone out there. Take it from someone who knows for a fact that's true from experience.
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