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Depression is never fun..
Posted December 28th 2012 at 08:57 PM by Reign.
I don't like posting things about my own sadness because I'm here to help other people.
But.
I just need to rant a bit.
So. After my ex left me and put me through an extensive amount of pain, I was finally happy. Single, and happy all by myself.
I was happy with myself and I was content with everything. I thought I had healed from the pain my ex put me through and I thought I had moved on.
And I was DEPRESSION FREE for the FIRST time in 5 years. Ugh.
Well.
You can imagine how screwed I was whenever I found out.. I was so beyond wrong.
So. I felt good about where my life was at the time and there was someone new.
Someone I adored.
Someone I ended up hurting.
So. Him and I (the new guy) were together for a week.
Literally.
How pathetic am I?
He wanted to get more serious and it was then that I realized.. I couldn't go on with him.
It was in that moment, talking to him on the phone that I realized how much my ex really did screw me up.
The true amount of damage my ex did showed itself. And I was crushed.
I realized that I couldn't trust anyone the way I trusted my ex.. And I trusted him literally with my life.
So then I had to break it off with the new guy.
Even though the new guy was amazing. I liked him a lot.
I just couldn't trust him.
So. I've concluded.
I need to somehow get back to that place that I was in.
The blissful ignorance and confidence I had whenever I didn't know how much my ex truly hurt me.
Ugh.
Relationships suck.
But.
I just need to rant a bit.
So. After my ex left me and put me through an extensive amount of pain, I was finally happy. Single, and happy all by myself.
I was happy with myself and I was content with everything. I thought I had healed from the pain my ex put me through and I thought I had moved on.
And I was DEPRESSION FREE for the FIRST time in 5 years. Ugh.
Well.
You can imagine how screwed I was whenever I found out.. I was so beyond wrong.
So. I felt good about where my life was at the time and there was someone new.
Someone I adored.
Someone I ended up hurting.
So. Him and I (the new guy) were together for a week.
Literally.
How pathetic am I?
He wanted to get more serious and it was then that I realized.. I couldn't go on with him.
It was in that moment, talking to him on the phone that I realized how much my ex really did screw me up.
The true amount of damage my ex did showed itself. And I was crushed.
I realized that I couldn't trust anyone the way I trusted my ex.. And I trusted him literally with my life.
So then I had to break it off with the new guy.
Even though the new guy was amazing. I liked him a lot.
I just couldn't trust him.
So. I've concluded.
I need to somehow get back to that place that I was in.
The blissful ignorance and confidence I had whenever I didn't know how much my ex truly hurt me.
Ugh.
Relationships suck.
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Hey, sweetie.
I am so sorry to hear about what happened with this new relationship. You couldn't trust him and even being in a relationship with someone for four, five, SIX years, and not being able to trust them like that, it's quite dangerous.
Sometimes relationships don't last as long as we would liek them to. Some go for days, some go for years but one...... goes forever. This new person wasn't the guy for you and all one week means is that you found that out in one week. That's not pathetic, Crystal
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Relationships are indeed a bitch, but just remember that everything you do is for you. Remember that there is always some reason relationships end. Some were emant to end, some were DESTINED to end but through it all, you're amazing as an individual and any guy would be extremely lucky to have you and them as a relationship.
You will find one guy to be with forever. That's Mr Right. Just remember that each breakup makes you stronger and brings you one step closer to finding the guy you REALLY love and look forward to the day you find the guy you really love.
You are AMAZING and very beautiful, there is absolutely zero doubt in my mind you will find the guy for you <3.
And don't give up.
H.
P..S. Don't be afraid to rant if you need to, that's what we're here for, to support you, happy or potentially sad.Posted December 28th 2012 at 09:56 PM by Amorphous.
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Thank you,
that really made me feel better. ^_^
Oh, and my name isn't Crystal.
but thanks. Lol.
Posted December 31st 2012 at 06:52 PM by Reign.
