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I miss it...*triggering*

Posted September 24th 2012 at 11:22 PM by escape♥

Tags boyfriend, happiness, love, missing, past, self-harm, therapy

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I miss having multiple, multiple reasons to laugh and smile every day, I miss seeing your face, your eyes, every single day. I miss feeling your hand in mine, I miss being happy to be alive in the morning, I miss not lying when I said “I’m doing great” or “I’m fine”. I miss feeling loved, I miss everything.
I miss being in a good place. I miss not wanting to cut through my skin, day in and day out. I miss being h a p p y.
I haven't been happy for more than a couple of hours in a longgggggg time.

I miss coming home and just doing homework and laughing at my favorite TV shows, instead of bingeing and crying my eyes out.
I miss not having to tell everybody that my weekly therapy appointments are just "doctor visits". I miss my past being my past and not taking over the present.
I miss being that "positive, happy, outgoing, bubbly girl".

I just want to be happy again.

Posted in Rampant Thoughts in the Unforgiving Darkness

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1. 	Hey Honey, What's making you unhappy? It's OK to be unhappy though, we all get down, some more than others. Are you still going to therapy? Please, please, remember that I am here to rant at, so feel free to send me a PM or VM. I know you're probably sick of hearing it, but stay strong! -Sam <3
   	Posted September 25th 2012 at 04:51 PM by Samwise

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