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I'm Trying
Posted December 12th 2011 at 04:38 AM by Ashes2493
So yesterday I spent the day with my mom. I was really nervous for it, I was worried about what she wanted to tell me.
It all started out well. We talked about a lot of stuff and we went shopping for books, which was odd because my mom doesn't like to read, but she knows I do.
It wasn't until we went out to eat that she told me what she wanted. Just blatantly came out with it and said, "I wished your brother had lived instead of you, maybe then my life would be better."
Really Mom?? Do you get a F***ing kick out of building me up and then tearing me down. Grow up and get a life. I'm trying to not let you bring me down but it's getting really hard. She kept talking to me, but I didn't care, I just kept thinking about what she said. Maybe I saw this coming and that's why Dylan has been on my mind. I wish I could leave this house but I can't. Can't afford it, but I wish I could, so then I wouldn't have to put up with her.
I'm trying Dylan, for the both of us. Just keep looking out for me from wherever you might be.
It all started out well. We talked about a lot of stuff and we went shopping for books, which was odd because my mom doesn't like to read, but she knows I do.
It wasn't until we went out to eat that she told me what she wanted. Just blatantly came out with it and said, "I wished your brother had lived instead of you, maybe then my life would be better."
Really Mom?? Do you get a F***ing kick out of building me up and then tearing me down. Grow up and get a life. I'm trying to not let you bring me down but it's getting really hard. She kept talking to me, but I didn't care, I just kept thinking about what she said. Maybe I saw this coming and that's why Dylan has been on my mind. I wish I could leave this house but I can't. Can't afford it, but I wish I could, so then I wouldn't have to put up with her.
I'm trying Dylan, for the both of us. Just keep looking out for me from wherever you might be.
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Hey there, that does seem like quite a descpicable thing to do on her part. I wish the best for you in the future.
Posted December 12th 2011 at 12:33 PM by Choose
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Thanks. It's gotten really bad lately, I'm hoping she lets up at least a little.Posted December 13th 2011 at 04:21 AM by Ashes2493
