deprivation

Cried myself to sleep.. Woot... Fucked up,, Was in a bitchy mood, and no matter what I did, I couldn't stop myself from hurting her.. Now she says she's going to make it so no one can ever hurt her again... She wouldn't tell me what she meant by that.. She said she was tired and went to "bed"

I better talk to her today... I need to know if she hates me as much as I hate myself right now.. I can't fucking believe I made her cry.. I just wanna die.
I hate this. Why the fuck couldn't I fall for someone nice here.. It had to be SC... D':

I don't fucking know anymore... My stomach is killing me.. I tried 8 advil to put me to sleep, that didn't work. I'm on 30-45 minutes of sleep, and a tummy ache because of my weak overdose... fml...

I just want this pain to end.. I'm tired.. I don't want to live after knowing I hurt the only person who loved me... I don't know what I'm going to do when I get home.. Might just sleep the day away.. Till tomorrow for school anyways >.>

Hopefully she talks to me, and doesn't avoid my questions,,, Wahtever... I hate this and myself right now so it doesn't fucking matter...