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can't stop crying
Posted March 9th 2009 at 05:22 AM by chhd
okay i haven't cried in forever
but i just relapsed
pretty damn bad
and i just don't know what to do
someone please help me
i hate this
but i just relapsed
pretty damn bad
and i just don't know what to do
someone please help me
i hate this
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i was thursday
all i did thursday was cry
i cried and cried and cried
because of jake
i love him
and idk what to do
i'm not just saying that
i mean i've said i've loved a lotta people
and though i've meant it
but i know i mean it this time
and idk
jake's just..
idk
he's jake.
and i love him so much.
and it sucks.
he doesn't have a phone anymore
so we haven't talked since that night when you talked to him[:
thanks. ifreakinloveyou[[:
and idk.
I ' M N O T P R E G N A N T !
and idk
that's let a lot of weight off my shoulders
my only ish now is getting over him
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idk anymore
i think about cutting EVERYnight
i want to
i just can't bring myself to do it for real anymore
i broke a razor the other night and was "cutting pants"
and i accidentally cut my finger
really really deep
it was for real an accident
but it felt SO good
better than being high
better than being drunk
better than any feeling i've ever had.
EVER.
so i did a few more little cuts on my stomach.
and idk.
you're the ONLY person who knows this
i was laying out the other day in my bathing suit and i forgot about th ecuts completely
they were still visible
and my mom came outside and told me to come in
and hse saw them
and asked about them
i told her it was just the guinea pigs
but she didn't belive me
she knows i was full it shizzz.
idfk.
=/Posted March 15th 2009 at 10:41 PM by cjs94
