So there is this boy, Xavi, whom I really like. He is the nicest, sweetest boy I know and is on the swim team.

The other day Xavi, several of my friends, and I were waiting for a teacher to arrive. One of my friends, Sophia, decided to show me the texts between Xavi and her. The texts basically stated that they liked each other. She knew that I liked him! Later as we walking to lunch she showed the texts to me AGAIN!

I have no idea what to do. I have been avoiding...

It's constantly a struggle to avoid doing anything to harm myself. I have to stop whatever I am doing and tell myself that I am better than this. I am loved and have people who care about me. At times it feels like its the only way. It's not. It NEVER will be. I need to be here years from now to tell my younger brother that he shouldn't date that girl. I need to be here years from now to tell my older sister how proud I am that she graduated from college. I need to be here years from now to tell...