I Told Her

Ok, well I was afraid to tell my friend Ellie who I like because I was worried she might tell him, which isn't the worst thing, but I'm not quite ready for that yet and I'd rather he hear it from me.
Well she spent the night and was joking about that I was texting my "lover" and my brother, Nick, thought she was serious and asked if he knew I liked him. Ellie then got curious and kept pestering me until I told her. I shouldn't have given in, but she's my friend and I know I should trust her. I do for the most part but there's a little part of me that is worried.
What was worse is that she laughed when I told her who it was. She wasn't mean about it, she just found it funny that I liked him. She's more into looks than I am I think, plus she thinks Tyler is a little odd.
I'm doing ok about this. Just trying to picture different scenarios that could happen if she did tell him. I can deal with him not liking me back, but I would be crushed if it ruined my friendship with him. On the other hand, if he does like me, it could be a good thing for her to tell him, but not neccesarily. I'm just not ready to tell him myself yet, though. Maybe after another week or two, but just not yet. *Sigh*