omg omg omg

so about last month the school nurse called me down and told me to pull up my selves and she saw all my cuts and the only reason i keep it a secret was so that i didnt get my mom in trouble. i had told my mom many times i need to talk to someone about my problems and i didnt trust her enough to talk to her anymore
so anyway the nurse sent me to the guidance office and they called my mom and told her. well now that i started talking to them.. CPS (child protected services) just called about it and asked to talk to my mom.. the nurse promised that my mom wouldnt get in trouble ! );
funny how i keep this a secret for 2years but when i start talking to ppl my mom gets CPS called on her.. im so tired of CPS ive dealt with with almost my whole life with everyone saying my moms exboyfriend raped me and i admit it, when i didnt. and i stopped the cases by getting a fuken rape kit down when i was 13. or maybe 8 i dont remember ):!!!
ive just tried to forget about that. and the only reason i stopped it and didnt put him in jail was i didnt know when he touched me.. that was consided rape. i didnt understand it was wrong at the time and now i dont wanna start stuff. ppl already say im trying to get attention this will just make them say it more. and i dont wanna cause drama so therefore once again im hiding it and keeping it in. but right now i dont wanna have to deal with CPS again ! JUST GO AWAY!!! ):!