best friends ? .x.confused.x.

i feel like i failed my job in being his best friend. she hurt him so he hurt himself. /: if she said the right things i bet he would give her more chances. i wish things were better for him. when hes sad it makes me wanna cry.. he has asked me if i really cared, that just made me feel worse, i do care about him. more then anyone in the world. i love him and wish we were more then just friends. but he has never giving me the chance. //: he has told me that he feels the same way but when it was to late, i understand he is dying but i dont care, im going to be here for you till the end. nothing can change that. i wouldnt be like the other girls that didnt care about weather or not they hurt him but it doesnt matter. yes we fight but who doesnt? i wish he would have called me when yu got upset instead of cutting/: he was doing so good with out cutting and becuz i wasnt there for him he cut ): i dont understand.. when you die... I AM coming with you.!