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Nightmares (Trig?)
Posted August 31st 2011 at 05:59 AM by Ashes2493
So recently I have been having a lot of nightmares. Not just any kind of nightmares, the kind where I wake up drenched in a cold sweat, gasping for breath, and trying to scream but I can't. But the subject of my nightmares is what is bugging me, they have been about my ex-boyfriend, Micheal. Now some of you may now that he was a stalker and later became abusive to me. The odd thing is, is that these nightmares started happening, around the time he left for college.
(Trig. I think)
The nightmare starts out with me and a friend leaving a movie theatre at night. We are walking back to our cars, when Micheal pops out of nowhere and my friend vanishes. He says to me that we have, "unfinished business" and slaps me across the face. I try to run away, but then he catches me and beats me, and proceeds to rape me.
I always wake up on the verge of tears. He never really got that far with me, but I always feared it would. It just always seems so real, that I actually have to convince myself it's not. I always say this to myself to convince myself he's gone.
(Trig. I think)
The nightmare starts out with me and a friend leaving a movie theatre at night. We are walking back to our cars, when Micheal pops out of nowhere and my friend vanishes. He says to me that we have, "unfinished business" and slaps me across the face. I try to run away, but then he catches me and beats me, and proceeds to rape me.
I always wake up on the verge of tears. He never really got that far with me, but I always feared it would. It just always seems so real, that I actually have to convince myself it's not. I always say this to myself to convince myself he's gone.
He doesn't know where I live now...
He doesn't know where I work...
He can't hurt me now...
He's gone far away...
He's gone for good...
Hopefully...
He doesn't know where I work...
He can't hurt me now...
He's gone far away...
He's gone for good...
Hopefully...
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