I'm really struggling right now . I feel reallly low and i don't even know why. I felt really happy all of last week for no reason and i want to go back to that feeling
I am so angry with myself right now, i cut for the first time in almost 2 weeks. I'm so weak. I can't do anything right
I don't want to eat anymore. I hate the feeling and i always feel disgusting, fat and unlovable afterwards. I can't sleep anymore i just lie there and think of how i can end it all and...

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I am fast giving up on life right now. I don't see the point i can't take much more. It seems like everyone is out to get me. I'm on the edge and there all chanting me to jump. Well why don't i? I have stayed dtrong for me but i'm not worth this anymore. Everyone just keeps telling me what a selfish wast of space i am....so i calved selfish bitch into my arm. Just to remind me. I know i'm stupid and horrible and worthless. I don't need to be told i wish they would just get off my case for once ...

So todays been one of those days again. Everything is going wrong. I just want a hug and to be told everythings going to be ok. I miss my friend like hell. I still can't get over the fact she's not here. I need her right now more than ever theres so much going on i can't handle on my own. I would do anything to have her back. I just feel so lonley and useless. Maybe there right i should just die. I know it should be me who dead and not her sometimes lifes just not fair. Sometimes i wonder why i...