Imperfection *Trig*
Posted November 30th 2011 at 10:37 PM by Anatidaephobia
My friend posted on facebook saying how she hates how ugly she is and she wants plastic surgery. Honestly, she's one of the prettiest people I know and it makes me feel so inadequate. I don't think I've ever felt pretty in my entire life. It's because I'm not pretty, I'm not beautiful. Heck I'm not even a nice person. There's nothing beautiful about me. I make no differenceto the world. I'm never going to find anyone who like me. May aswell give up trying. I'm never going to be good enough. May
aswell give up on life.
aswell give up on life.
Everything seems so impossibly hard right now. I kind of wish I hadn't pushed everyone away. I don't know. Things are just impossibly hard right now. I'm tired of faking a smile and pretening I'm ok. I'm tired of being alive. I just don't know what I'm supposed to do anymore. I can't handle this on my own but I just can't let anyone else in.
These thoughts just won't go away. The images. The voices. I keeping seeing this person and it scares me. I can't tell anyone though it's not worth the risk. I just want to jump, overdose, hang myself... anything just to end this.
I just need a hug right now. I just feel frightened and alone.
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I'm here. :hug: You can get through this sweetheart. You're amazing.
Posted November 30th 2011 at 10:41 PM by Stargazed. -
Posted November 30th 2011 at 10:54 PM by Lumos. -
Posted November 30th 2011 at 11:35 PM by Storyteller.