and so you messed up......again (trig)
Posted July 2nd 2011 at 06:56 PM by Anatidaephobia
So i messed up again. Always destroying everything. Letting everyone down. Why did i ever open my mouth. Now she hates me. i don't blame her i mean who wants to put up with me? even i don't want to live with myself and if i hate me how can anyone else possibly like me?
Don't really want to go back to school anymore. My favourite teachers just left and now i hate every lesson and almost everyone in the school. I have pushed all my friends away. Can't concentrate on work and feel so left out. May aswell drop out.
I really don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to be alive. I mean i do but i don't think i can. I have 2 things to live for. Seeing my friends soon. But then after that i may aswell give up. Got nothing to live for after than. Nothing to fight for.
Feel so weak and alone. I'm trying but nothings working. Sliced up my arm. didn't go in all morning had to stop my arm bleeding had to hide what i did the night before, There are so many secrets and lies i don't know whats real anymore. I'm certainly not real. Or if i am i'm invisible so just let me jump and end this mess once and for all
Don't really want to go back to school anymore. My favourite teachers just left and now i hate every lesson and almost everyone in the school. I have pushed all my friends away. Can't concentrate on work and feel so left out. May aswell drop out.
I really don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to be alive. I mean i do but i don't think i can. I have 2 things to live for. Seeing my friends soon. But then after that i may aswell give up. Got nothing to live for after than. Nothing to fight for.
Feel so weak and alone. I'm trying but nothings working. Sliced up my arm. didn't go in all morning had to stop my arm bleeding had to hide what i did the night before, There are so many secrets and lies i don't know whats real anymore. I'm certainly not real. Or if i am i'm invisible so just let me jump and end this mess once and for all
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Posted July 2nd 2011 at 07:07 PM by Everglow. -
I know right now things seem like they will never get better. But you have to keep fighting Emma. You have got things to live for such as your friends and family who would be devastated if anything happened to you. You are such an amazing person and one day you will be happy. Keep fighting, you can get there <3
Posted July 2nd 2011 at 07:19 PM by *Jen* -
Emma, keep fighting this dear, I know you can. You're strong. I can't wait until I see you, I love you, you can do this! <3
Posted July 2nd 2011 at 08:08 PM by Unknown10 -
Posted July 3rd 2011 at 06:56 PM by Troubled_Heart -
Posted July 6th 2011 at 02:35 PM by ALittleLost