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Just say you're happy
Posted April 11th 2011 at 11:16 PM by Anatidaephobia
Updated April 11th 2011 at 11:28 PM by Anatidaephobia
Updated April 11th 2011 at 11:28 PM by Anatidaephobia
I feel so low right now. Haven't felt this low in a while. I just want this all to stop. I want to feel important. I want someone to hold me and tell me how everything will be ok. I don't know how much longer i can pretend. I have no choice though. My mom practically told me if i don't stop "moping around" and feeling sorry for myself then i can get out the house. Ok do you think i want to feel like this, mom? Do you think i want to hate myself? Do you think i want to constantly hurt myself? Do you think i like feeling like crap everytime i have eaten? I hate this! I hate me! She told me i am a selfish cow and to text my friend saying i am ok. and that i am happy. That couldn't be further from the truth. I practically broke down yesterday. I have had like 5 panic attacks this week and just feel on the edge.
I am useless. I am selfish. I am fat. I am ugly. I am stupid. I am a failure. I am a waste of space. I am a stupid excuse for a person. I wreck everything. I hurt everyone. I make everyone and everthing so much worse. I am a stupid messed up cow! I actually hate me. I would be better of dead. Noone would care and everyone would be better of without me.
Just can't pretend any longer. Sick of all the secrets. Sick of hiding things. Sick of been alone. Sick of life 
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Hey beautiful.
I know it's hard right now but things can get better. I'm sorry your mum's acting like that, this isn't your fault. Please try to talk to someone, you don't have to try to deal with everything on your own. You can do this.
You're lovely and things can get better.
You know where I am.
Chin up. <3Posted April 12th 2011 at 01:36 PM by Victoria ♥
