Today

So, today kinda sucked. I came out to my baby cousin, but I had to take it back because her mom would see, so I played it off as a prank. Then, when I was chatting with a help line, my mom came in and stole my phone. So, today kinda sucked. If you were in chat between 7 and 8 pm, you would know there were some words exchanged.
I came back in the chat and apologized. Some you guys may remember this. This is why I am so weary about last words.
One day, my friend, (the girl im in love with), Hailey and I got into a fight. She thought I was saying things behind her back. This was when she had an underground pool. I said I hated her, and she said she was glad and she didn't ever want to see me again. I stormed out and I guess, slid on the concrete and fell in. I hit my head on the side of the pool, so I was drowsy and couldn't see straight. I started drowning, and thinking about Hailey. I loved her, more than I thought apparently, and she heard the water splashing and pulled me out. Our last words would've been horrible and I wouldn't be able to deal with that. We made up and I got 5 stitches.
Hailey being the last thing I would've thought about made me start the journey of my sexuality, and that's when I realized I liked her more than a friend. Depressing, right?