idk what to call it

People tell me that i am lucky every day because my parents are together. But it really sucks because when my mom and my brother aren't fighting my mom and my dad are. which isn't often but it sucks i have been waiting for three years to go to a FGCU softball camp it was supposed to my my dad and i but my mom decides to say that is is coming. i don't like her going to anything i do because she knows i have anxiety she still makes me NOT ask me MAKES me do stuff that i don't want to do. She is the reason that a lot of coaches don't like me because she is always arguing with me my dad or my coach. That sucks because then the coach will put me on the spot and i freeze. i have had at least 3 panic attacks because of her in the last two months. I love softball but she tries to make me hate it because she doesn't want me to do sports because i am a girl. she want me to be school smart. i love to write and read and do math but i really love sports. she does not she hates them. my dad is the one that helps me with all of my sports. all my mom does is criticize.