Another fucking day came.... Hate in the air, disgust is ruling ,cold war and every 1 is putting every 1 down........we are now back to the normal days of *crappy shut* family after the 3rd world ....house war.
Gotta class in couple of hours another teacher will be let down another nagging wave to scramble my numbness.....most of my meaningless words r being spilled just as balnk and empty as my soul is...no soul, no life, no family , no friends..... I mean c'mon I barely see any of them...

Sadness ,Disappointess and a blank soul
Doves ever roaving my zone
A far far of reach passion
Betrayal torturing the shreaded emotion
Promises of pain and traces of worst
All seen in future eyes of the speaking present
Memories left with the blade
Traces on hands and thies should be on wrist
Desprately reaching for exhaustion rest..
And a crimson tear sending broken 'hay'
To the friend laying in the grave of life,imagination...

Careless cold gerk genius assle freaking hell deamon cold gestures and blank look ever staring at infinity ever reflecting nothingness ever spreading fear in the black hearts as a beam of sunlight in vampiers world...as a stream of water in devils'hell.......cold and senseless nothing can move an emotion revive retrive it from its eternal grave....him: '.my shreded soul reflecting in me my killed passion burried inside of me and the endless pain pouring in the vessles every second torturing this...

here is how my typical break down would start:
I do not know what on ***** earth is the wrong i did to .....i hate life i hate this world i hate the fact that i am alive i hate the fact that i have to live and every little tiny detail in my life, i wish i did not understamd i wish i were stupid i wish i were nothing just a wall i envey walls for not having to deal with this ......why shall i live? I do not have a single fucking reason to live notrhing i love nothing i want no dreams no hope...