does not make any sense.....just like me

Sadness ,Disappointess and a blank soul
Doves ever roaving my zone
A far far of reach passion
Betrayal torturing the shreaded emotion
Promises of pain and traces of worst
All seen in future eyes of the speaking present
Memories left with the blade
Traces on hands and thies should be on wrist
Desprately reaching for exhaustion rest..
And a crimson tear sending broken 'hay'
To the friend laying in the grave of life,imagination or may be me
Choacking with pain
And hiding soars
Is it me or the world i no more know..
Is it life or destiney i do not wanna know
As Tears are backwards rolling
As words r slowly choacking
And the world is strangely strangely spinning
Only silence is speaking
About my nevertherless tendance to retrospect
The eternal,feeling of deep guilt
For the crime i did not commit and as a rain drop is about 2 fall from the clouds under the brow a suffering yell loanging hope cant help but spill the 'wont wrok' spell:
'there behind horizon ,further than dreams, in the land of mystery &imgination across misery oceans and dark seas........a small boat of me and me moving slowly towards the light, then flying gently closer to the light looking forward forward to the end smiling joyfully reaching out its almost there in my hand and as sound comes out.....'now I wll find eternal rest'it all breaks in a new nightmare. Spreading hell on my night and day ......a sad violine and a ghosty wind......are all i have in my deserted end
look my friend beyond their sight
Hide the language of the eye
Take your headphone off and listen inside
A voice in recesses of the heart still wants you fight
Triggering souvenires of whisteling echo spreading threat
Urging questions popping out
Song of solitude and as all the blind eyes are walking after a fake phantom...but we us me and you the world look ,the symphoney again the sound follow the sound, the story the symphoney blood again is powering art no is it science all of them hay it is all here an new begin......... and booom back to reality world .....and the following is my only surviving words
Sleep my darling waaaaayyyy tooo deep
Tomorrow hell will be worst indeed
Note:I know it is full with mistakes and has no sense so if u ever bother to read...idk just dc