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Posted April 26th 2009 at 01:10 PM by 84y
Another fucking day came.... Hate in the air, disgust is ruling ,cold war and every 1 is putting every 1 down........we are now back to the normal days of *crappy shut* family after the 3rd world ....house war.
Gotta class in couple of hours another teacher will be let down another nagging wave to scramble my numbness.....most of my meaningless words r being spilled just as balnk and empty as my soul is...no soul, no life, no family , no friends..... I mean c'mon I barely see any of them /unless they want sth from me/ and as the only ..... U know what makes it more and more facinatingly *blank?*......hearing others crying about dealing with 1 problem of what u've been threw..as i am hearing this problems show i used 2 hear i feel a very urging need 2 laugh and laugh and laugh.......why? Here is de 1st girl talking about being abused by her father, the 1 b4 wining about her parents fights and beating, the third how mean his friends were and the fourth for not being loved, having a g.f and the last *who broke it* for being blamed 4 sth he did not do and now he's grounded and as de psychologist answers each 1 'may b it is hard but it is possible hang on ......shitty advice....ends up by /we all believe in u/ ' i can not help but think then what am I? That fucking nosey councellour would not shut it off..... I went to take my *MUst be repeateed iq test for dof results (believe it or not but I had 2 iq tests one resulted 99*mentally retired* and the other 148 or sth *I am smarter than davinci, mozart and einstein* both crappy shut ended up by * u r LLH so stop trying no matter how hard u try u cant gurantee any thing u may get the perfect score as u may fail back 2 ur deeper psycho ......blah blah blah blah* shut that means kill ur self......the bitch is gonna go on never knowing my name /i am number 376 or sth/ keaving me here....why on fucking earth did she call me 4 ? .....however, i still laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh.....soooo many people each wining about 1 prob of my bunch yet i do not feel like trouble......i fail so be it, i pass so be it .....i have the feeling of guilt nagging me sometimes yet all i do is sit back taste of salt in my mouth.my chicks r wet...well..i thought i was laughing.it seems like all i did was that i *cried* even though i think my life is not hell.....u need a life first then it is made hell but me, alife or dead, genius or retired, hated or loved, existed or not i will always stay the echo of a scream ever bouncing off the pain rocks in the cold vacuum.....yet there is a good side....i do not feel a thing any more.....even though i still smile when i think about shooting the gerk and the 2 sluts ....4 bullets for the erk , 2 in the knees and two where the arm meets the sholder, other 2 one for each bitch right in the front of her empty head
Gotta class in couple of hours another teacher will be let down another nagging wave to scramble my numbness.....most of my meaningless words r being spilled just as balnk and empty as my soul is...no soul, no life, no family , no friends..... I mean c'mon I barely see any of them /unless they want sth from me/ and as the only ..... U know what makes it more and more facinatingly *blank?*......hearing others crying about dealing with 1 problem of what u've been threw..as i am hearing this problems show i used 2 hear i feel a very urging need 2 laugh and laugh and laugh.......why? Here is de 1st girl talking about being abused by her father, the 1 b4 wining about her parents fights and beating, the third how mean his friends were and the fourth for not being loved, having a g.f and the last *who broke it* for being blamed 4 sth he did not do and now he's grounded and as de psychologist answers each 1 'may b it is hard but it is possible hang on ......shitty advice....ends up by /we all believe in u/ ' i can not help but think then what am I? That fucking nosey councellour would not shut it off..... I went to take my *MUst be repeateed iq test for dof results (believe it or not but I had 2 iq tests one resulted 99*mentally retired* and the other 148 or sth *I am smarter than davinci, mozart and einstein* both crappy shut ended up by * u r LLH so stop trying no matter how hard u try u cant gurantee any thing u may get the perfect score as u may fail back 2 ur deeper psycho ......blah blah blah blah* shut that means kill ur self......the bitch is gonna go on never knowing my name /i am number 376 or sth/ keaving me here....why on fucking earth did she call me 4 ? .....however, i still laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh.....soooo many people each wining about 1 prob of my bunch yet i do not feel like trouble......i fail so be it, i pass so be it .....i have the feeling of guilt nagging me sometimes yet all i do is sit back taste of salt in my mouth.my chicks r wet...well..i thought i was laughing.it seems like all i did was that i *cried* even though i think my life is not hell.....u need a life first then it is made hell but me, alife or dead, genius or retired, hated or loved, existed or not i will always stay the echo of a scream ever bouncing off the pain rocks in the cold vacuum.....yet there is a good side....i do not feel a thing any more.....even though i still smile when i think about shooting the gerk and the 2 sluts ....4 bullets for the erk , 2 in the knees and two where the arm meets the sholder, other 2 one for each bitch right in the front of her empty head
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