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Posted September 28th 2011 at 07:36 PM by *thegirlinthecorner-TAN*
so i have been thinking alot about everything everyone has said and i want to thank you for taking the time to just say hi. i have also thought again about how much i want to die. i'm ready to say good bye. yesterday i attempted to overdose, i took 2 caffeine pills, 6 tylenol, 5 benadryl, 2 nyquil, and 3 aspirin. i felt sick and almost puked. i stayed up until 11:30 writing in my journel before the benadryl and nyquil kicked in and i passed out.
i wish to God that it had worked. i prayed for God to take me or save me. i guess he chose to save me. Well you know what God, you win! i'm still fucking here! i wish i wasn't because each breath hurts to breathe. each blink i pray that my eyes won't open. when i dream, its sad because all the best dreams i have are the ones in which i'm dying.
please don't say that i'm being selfish. please don't tell me that i deserve to be alive. just please don't
i wish to God that it had worked. i prayed for God to take me or save me. i guess he chose to save me. Well you know what God, you win! i'm still fucking here! i wish i wasn't because each breath hurts to breathe. each blink i pray that my eyes won't open. when i dream, its sad because all the best dreams i have are the ones in which i'm dying.
please don't say that i'm being selfish. please don't tell me that i deserve to be alive. just please don't
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Hang in there. You're still here for a reason<3Posted September 28th 2011 at 08:14 PM by Just Peachy.
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thanks but i don't feel like i am. i can't do anything right, i feel like a waste of space. the person i love can't see that every breath, every blink is for him. every time my heart beats is a reminder that i didn't succeed I'm still here. i hate the air i breathe, i hate every time i blink and my eyes reopen. i wish i wasnt alive, GOD! kill me! i don't want to do this anymorePosted September 30th 2011 at 11:58 PM by *thegirlinthecorner-TAN*
